1:45AM

For whatever reason, I have grown to be accustomed to writing in the wee hours of the morning.


Yes, I blog whenever I want but when I really have to write, the creative juices only begin to flow at this ungodly hour. I could blame my student lifestyle of cramming way back but then again, I blog at the same time when trying to finish a paper due at 7 or 8 in the morning.


So why do I really sacrifice sleeping over writing?


I don't know really. Writing at dawn comes naturally to me. It requires little effort on my part. The unexpressed words during the day suddenly tell my fingers to type them instantly and they all get strung together as if it took me hours to form a cohesive sentence. But honestly, as in this moment, I am not doing any thinking, and just let everything flow.  I might have hit the backspace key a few times but it was just all for spelling corrections. Mind you, I get my grammar right even if I just stare on the screen, letting my fingers waltz on my keyboard and tell you what is there to watch out.


I would write for hours, mindless of the time, even if the clock has been ticking loud enough, sometimes it's deafening. It gets irritating. But the sound of me typing and pounding on the keyboard is such a lovely music to the ears. It drowns down the irritating ticking sound that drives most humans mad.


I know I'll be sacrificing my sensibility and health when I wake up. As if staying up late isn't enough, I have to keep my brain thinking. But it's all good. When I hit save or print or whatever, go through what just transpired, I feel like I won an award or something. Because I had finally let out thoughts and turned them into something understandable by man. I got my point across.


Writing is my own form of relaxation. I have fallen into this addiction of writing at the speed of thought. It's as if my fingers are in a race with my mind. It just has to keep up with all the words scrambling about to get out. It's just sheer bliss. And believe it or not, when I read all this later when I wake up, I would have no idea where this came from.